Surgery is over. Waiting to go home.
They took five nodes. We won’t have biopsy results for 2-3 weeks.
All for now.
Month: June 2012
Some folks have asked what our schedule is for Monday. Here it is.
Up at 4 a.m.
4:30, leave home to make sure we are there on time – they have said if we’re late they will cancel the surgery.
5 .m., check in at Washington Hospital Center – why so early? I don’t know!
7 a.m., go to nuclear medicine to have the radioactive dye injected so they can look for the sentinel node(s).
When that’s over, take the pictures and go to the ambulatory surgery center to meet Dr. Boisvert and Dr. Convit.
9 a.m., surgery starts.
Dr. Convit (the plastic surgeon) says the surgery will take between 90 minutes and 3 hours, depending on how long it takes them to actually find the sentinel nodes.
at least one hour in recovery after the surgery is over – so it could be after 1 p.m. before we come home.
Robert will have a “mummy bandage” on his head covering the skin graft for about eight days. I don’t know what kind of dressing he’ll have on the donor site, but I understand that often takes longer to heal. Some people have numbness around the graft site for a while afterwards. Some surgeons apply a hard cap over the bandage, held on with a chin strap, to keep pressure on the wound site.
We may not want to talk with anyone except Allison and Loren on Monday, so please don’t be worried if we don’t answer any of our phones. My mother has promised to worry enough for everyone, being the worrier-in-chief. We’re going to be fine, but we will likely be tired and grumpy on Monday. Sorry!
I’ll post something here as soon as I can after the surgery – maybe while he’s in recovery, if my iPad works OK with this website. (That remains to be seen. I’ve tested but didn’t much like the results because I can’t use the WYSIWYG buttons.) Otherwise, it will be later in the day.
I’m trying to make this website work well enough to keep people informed of Robert’s progress on Monday. I don’t think I’ll succeed.
It’s a good time for me to bring some perspective to this effort. True, I would like to avoid countless telephone calls on Monday. I was hoping to have the site built out so that I could ask someone else to post updates for me. That way the burden of updates could be shifted so that anyone who wants one could get it without my having to post them.
I probably could do it if I did nothing else between now and bedtime Sunday. Not going to happen…
So, back to the issue of perspective: I know that Monday is not the end of our road. It’s a good bet there will be ample opportunities to use this website that way in the future.
I’m going to work in my garden tomorrow! Then I’ll work on this blog.
Another step
To learn about Drupal 7 I’m going through Tom Geller’s course, Drupal 7 Essential Training, on Lynda.com. In the video about creating user accounts, Tom talks about the site developer’s need to understand why the site is being created in order to decide what policies to set for new users:
can anyone in the world create an account?
can only the administrator create one? or
can people create accounts that will be activated when approved by the administrator?
He ends his tutorial by saying that it depends on whether you are creating the site because you want to publish, or because you want to invite others to comment. That made me stop and think …
This should not have been a revelation for me – I’ve done this for a living! But I did not think that part completely through before I started working on this blog-site. My first thought was to create a mechanism to tell our family and friends what’s going on with Robert’s melanoma so that we don’t have to go through the same story and answer the same questions time after time.
So far, however, more of my posts have been about learning Drupal 7. That may be because, until now, that’s been more immediate – we have been playing a waiting game on the melanoma front. That’s about to change, however, as surgery is only four days away. I suppose that means it’s time for me to tell people about this blog, and decide the sign-up will work if they want to comment. That’s a task for tomorrow …
Biding our time
The business of waiting is not one either Robert or I come by naturally – we both “just want to know already” and move on toward doing something about it. From the beginning, this melanoma thing has not cooperated with our need to move things along.
We were advised on May 14 to make an appointment with the Melanoma Clinic at the Washington Hospital Center’s cancer center. Easier said than done – after two days of calling and not hearing back, they told us we would have to wait two weeks just to get the first appointment. When you have just been informed that you (or your spouse/partner) have metastatic melanoma and you find out that the prognosis is six to nine months, two weeks seems like an eternity!
Luckily, Robert’s primary care physician, Mitch Dunn, was able to speed things up for us! Instead of waiting until May 30 for the top guy in the Melanoma Clinic to tell us what was next, Dr. Dunn ordered the PET scan that we knew would be needed. He also smoothed the way for us to get an appointment with William Sharfman at Hopkins. Washington Hospital Center also responded by getting us an appointment earlier, at least with some of the doctors there.
Things moved along pretty well — Robert had the PET scan, and we found out that the cancer has not spread (or at least is not evident big-time) to his organs or elsewhere on/in his body. Good news! And, Dr. Sharfman told us he is not certain this is metastatic melanoma – it may be a primary dermal melanoma, or maybe the primary site with regression on the surface. That we may never know which it is does not comfort me. However, the prognosis is better for the other two options, so that’s what I’m going with at this point.
The next step is surgery to take off the cancerous skin on top of his head and take out the sentinel node(s) to be biopsied. When your doctors are in demand, just scheduling the surgery can take time. We found out June 1 that it had been scheduled for June 18 at 9 a.m. So now we wait.
Very hard, all this waiting. There’s still cancer on his head. We need it gone.
And now, we have an inkling that Monday, June 18, will be another day with too much time spent waiting. The surgery is set for 9 a.m., and we have to be there four hours beforehand. They tell you that if you are late they cancel your surgery. OK, 5 a.m. it is, then …
There’s a reason to arrive early. The appointed time is for the surgeons and the procedure room (or operating room or wherever the cutting will take place). Before the surgery, Robert needs to go to Nuclear Medicine to have some radioactive dye injected and pictures taken so they’ll know which lymph node(s) to biopsy. But when the nurse called to ask him the pre-admission questions (all of which he has answered many times before), she indicated that Nuclear Medicine will see him at 7 a.m. It will be interesting to see what he needs to do between 5 a.m. and 7 a.m. — I’m sure there are papers to fill out and sign, and he’ll have to get undressed for surgery, but I’m not sure how that could take two hours.
So, we’ll be biding our time. We haven’t yet gotten to be very good at this waiting game. But, we’ll be there at 5 a.m. on Monday, June 18. And, if there’s nothing else to do, we’ll wait!
The mysterious appearance of my Drupal feeds on the bottom of my blog entries is a welcome sight. I found it today, in the Triptych region at the bottoms of the pages.
Moving right along, then, I’ll see if I can make it appear on the front page too. I think it’s more useful there.
I also changed the appearance of the blog entries by altering the tag set allowed in Filtered HTML to add the tag. I found that the spacing between paragraphs was not showing up, and I had started to double-space between graphs – but that’s not the way it’s supposed to be done. I have altered tag sets in Drupal 6, so it was not a mystery to me – actually, it’s easier in D7. An improvement! But I’m not sure why the default tag set for Filtered HTML would not include a tag.
I’f you’re listening out there Drupal folks, just a suggestion – include the tag in the default. Everyone should use paragraphs!
Under his skin, in his words
I started to write all the sordid details about Robert’s diagnosis with melanoma because otherwise it feels like starting in the middle. I decided not to write it, though, because his own summary tells the story much better than I could. The following comes from an email that he sent on May 29 to our families and a few friends.
This email is a terribly impersonal way of telling you how our May has gone. It’s not that Hazel or I do not want to talk to you, it’s that we know each of you will have the same questions. So I’ll try to provide the answers, at least the ones we now have.
In April I went to the dermatologist for my periodic inspection, and early in May he removed what appeared to be a sebaceous cyst from the back of my head. It appeared there as a small thing about a year ago and had grown slowly until a few months ago, when it got bigger.
He sent the thing off for a biopsy, and about a week later we learned that the lump was a melanoma. Because I have never had a mole or skin lesion that was diagnosed as a primary melanoma, never had any moles removed, and they could find no place on my skin where a melanoma had been but disappeared, this was diagnosed as metastatic melanoma.
Often, once primary melanomas are removed they don’t recur. Metastatic melanoma is another matter altogether. It’s the most aggressive form of skin cancer, far worse than the squamus cell carcinoma my mother had. For those of you who are blood relatives, that I have melanoma is a risk factor for you. Sorry.
Since then we have been to the melanoma clinics at the Washington Hospital Center and Johns Hopkins. I had a PET/CT, which showed no signs that the thing on my head has spread to any other parts of my body, or that it came from some other place. That’s encouraging, but not a cause for celebration.
The next step is to do what is known as a sentinel node biopsy and replace the skin around the site of the cyst with a graft to make sure no melanoma cells were left behind. For the biopsy they inject dye around the cyst and see which lymph node(s) it travels to. Then they remove and biopsy the node(s) to see if any melanoma cells are present. If none are found that’s very good because that is an indication the melanoma did not go beyond the cyst.
The problem is that they probably will never be able to tell whether I have primary or metastatic melanoma. Although most people who get melanoma initially have a mole or lesion on the epidermis, some people have what is called dermal melanoma, meaning the primary melanoma starts below the epidermis.
All melanoma cells look alike, whether they are primary or metastatic. Therefore, it probably will be impossible to stage mine, making arriving at a prognosis very difficult.
In any event, all agree that I need the sentinel node biopsy and plastic surgery before considering future treatment. I’m seeing the surgical oncologist later this week and probably will have the surgery in 2 or 3 weeks, depending on doctors’ schedules.
There are at least three potential courses of treatment, depending on the results of the sentinel node biopsy. If they find no melanoma in the nodes, an experimental vaccine against the disease is a possibility, followed by regular monitoring. Hopkins and several other research hospitals have trials under way. If they find melanoma cells in the lymph node, chemotherapy with interferon might be advisable. Melanoma can have two genetic mutations, and if mine is one of those the treatment might include growing antibodies that target the specific mutation.
The doctors I’ve seen seem to agree on one thing, my general health is very good. They see that as indicating my melanoma, if it is metastatic, only recently got that way. They also think my body can handle the available treatments.
Again, sorry for doing this in an email. But repeating all of this to each of you, and telling you we don’t know more, is not my idea of fun. We’ll let you know when things become clearer. As I said at the beginning, it is not that Hazel and I do not want to talk to you. We just do not want to waste everyone’s time ruminating unknowns.
P.S. If we’ve already discussed seeing you this summer we plan to be there. If we need to change our plans we’ll let you know.
So, that’s Robert’s story, in his own words.
If you were not among our relatives or friends who received the email, please don’t take that to mean anything about our relationship with you. Your email may have bounced because he didn’t have your current email address in his contact manager. It’s also possible that it got trapped in your spam filter because his subject line was “Tidings” – perhaps because he didn’t want your email listing to have an ominous subject in it, or perhaps because he just couldn’t come up with anything else. I’m willing to cut him some slack at this point, and I’m guessing you are too!
Obviously I have a lot to learn about Drupal7, and today I tried something new, which I haven’t yet done in D6: adding a feed aggregator to my site.
First, a word about how I learn. Generally I’m pretty good at self-paced study, and my provider of choice is Lynda.com. I’ve been using this company’s training videos to learn all sorts of computer skills for several years. I subscribe to the basic service, so I don’t go through the exercises using the files provided with a premium membership. Instead, I try to make up similar exercises on my own site.
You’ll see evidence of my most recent learning experience on this website – or, I should say, you won’t easily find it there! I’m not sure why, or what I’ve done wrong. I’ve aggregated two blogs – one by my Lynda.com instructor for D7 Essential Training, Tom Geller, who blogs about Drupal at www.tomgeller.com, and the other from the Drupal website. Tom’s blog hasn’t been updated since January, so I didn’t get any results there – but even so, he deserves a plug here for all he’s taught me about Drupal!
I succeeded in bringing the Drupal Planet blog in from drupal.org/planet. I tried to configure it in the Bartik theme by placing it in the “Sidebar Second” region – in other words, the right-hand side of the page – but it doesn’t show up there. Then, I tried to put it in the Tryptich region at the bottom of the page. No luck.
Tomorrow is another day … and I’ll spend some time figuring out why my “blogroll” won’t show up where I tell it to. No promises – but in the meantime, if you want to follow this exercise as I add more Drupal blogs (if I can find any), go to http://www.hazelbecker.com/?q=aggregator/categories/1. I hope I’ll be able to make it show up on the Home page soon.
The best laid plans …
My journey to proficiency with Drupal 7 took a sharp turn today, when I decided I would add some new features to this blog. I will use the Taxonomy feature, a module in D6 but built into Core in D7, to tag posts so that people who don’t want to read about Drupal can easily avoid those posts. I created the taxonomy, which I named Blog Subjects, and added Drupal, Melanoma, and Journalism as terms. Easy – so far so good!
I was going to write about melanoma – my preoccupation these days – and start to tell our story, or at least my perspective on it. Even before I started writing, though, I thought it would be good to have the ability to tell that story, for the time being, to just the people I’m writing it for – in other words, not make it available to the entire WWW. In D6 you do that by using a module called Node Access, which gives authorized users a Grant tab allowing them to restrict access on a node-by-node basis.
Sharp turn – because the Node Access module is not yet ready for prime time in D7! I took it for granted that I would have all the functionality on this new site that I have on my other Drupal sites. I discovered that an alpha version of the module is available for D7 but it’s not recommended for production sites. Perhaps there’s a way to do this using core functions of D7, but if so it’s not intuitive.
I have two options –
· forget about it and brave the public, or at least write for a while and see who pays attention; or
· find a work-around that will allow me to restrict access to some subjects I address in this blog.
For the moment, I’m looking for a work-around. Soon, I’ll get around to writing about melanoma.
Now, I’m off to figure out how to apply a taxonomy to my blog posts. I hope you’ll see the results of that quest soon.
I was inspired by my BNA colleague John Schappi’s blog, “Aging and Parkinson’s and Me,” to start this blog. Like John’s blog, mine will be a personal website where I will share what’s going on in my head – whether about the health topics that are raging in there right now; or website design and implementation using Drupal, an open-source content management system that is being employed to produce this website; or journalism, retirement, grandparenthood, or any other subject that pops in there from time to time.
I’m using a new Drupal 7 website to produce this blog, as a vehicle to learn about the latest release of the website production system I’ve been using for the last few years. Eventually I’ll move my business website, now appearing in Drupal 6 at www.by-words.com, into Drupal 7 at this URL (www.hazelbecker.com) as an archive of my work as a publication consultant and freelance writer, and possibly as an active business site. I’ve set up the site (with installation help from my husband, Robert) and begun to design it. I will likely write about my D7 learning experience on this blog, and I’ll tag those posts “drupal” so that those of you who have no interest in this subject will know to ignore that post.
My impetus for beginning a blog right now has been change. The first domino to fall was Robert’s diagnosis with metastatic melanoma, which I found out about on May 14. I will write more about this experience in other posts, but for now let me just say that this discovery was transformative. I know that others who are close to cancer survivors understand how this transformation might have played out. For those who are interested in knowing more, I’ll write some blog posts and tag them “melanoma.”
After the initial diagnosis, and facing work deadlines for two stories due June 1, I found that I couldn’t concentrate – my quest for knowledge about melanoma was all that my brain could handle. Knowing that we would be facing challenges over at least the next few months, including periods of uncertainty and discovery, I decided to stop working, at least for the time being. I may change my mind after things settle down here – however that happens – but for the moment I consider myself “retired.” If I decide to write more about this change in my life, I’ll tag those posts “retirement.”
So, I’ll start my D7 blog with three taxonomy terms. I plan to build the site a little before I invite my family, friends, and colleagues to sign up. If all goes well, I’ll set it up with enough flexibility that people who want updates pushed to their inboxes can sign up for them. For the moment I’ll keep it all behind a curtain since Robert isn’t ready to “go public” with his health status.
And with this, my new project is launched.